Hello, my name is Ruth. I am 24 years old and live in Derby. I have been married for 2 ½ years, and work for the NHS
as a Speech and Language Therapist. I love to sing, cook and spend time with my family. However, I’ve got to pause
there, because although all those things are nice to hear and know, they don’t tell you about my true identity at all.
I want to tell you about how I came to find my true identity in Jesus Christ.
I was brought up with my two sisters in a Christian home. Both my parents trust Jesus as their Saviour and we were taught about God from childhood. I can never remember doubting God’s existence - I believed in God and I believed the Bible. However, although I believed in God, I didn’t know Him personally or have a relationship with Him.
When I started High School, I was old enough to join the church youth group. Every year, this group went away for the May Bank Holiday weekend and in the year 2000, I was old enough to join them. I knew the weekend was a special weekend of fun and laughter, but also that priority was always given to God’s Word, the Bible. Each morning we went into groups to study the Bible and then in the evening we had a guest speaker who spoke to us from the Bible.
On the Saturday evening, after a long walk, a man named Billy McCurrie spoke to us from the Bible. To this day, I don’t remember what passage he read from or even what he spoke on, but what I do know is that I realised my personal need of a Saviour for the first time. I had heard about God’s redemption story since a child, but never, before then, had I been stirred or motivated to seek Christ as my own Saviour. When the service finished I went quietly to my room with a book called “Ultimate Questions” by John Blanchard. I read the book through on my bed and then re-read some of the final questions which told me how I could be saved. I knew I was a sinner and guilty before a perfect, holy God. I wanted to be right with God and to spend eternity with Him, so I prayed a simple prayer asking for forgiveness for my sins through Christ’s death on the cross.
I remember feeling so happy after putting my trust in Jesus - I had become a Christian! I went to my youth leaders and told them the good news and then my parents and family as soon as I got home from the holiday.
As a Christian, I still sin and make mistakes in my life because I am not perfect. It is true to say that I am sorrowful about many decisions and choices I have wrongly made over the years since becoming a Christian. Falling into sin has often led Satan to plant thoughts in my mind - “how can you be a Christian when you’ve done this...? You say you’re a Christian and yet you sin in this way...?”
At times, I have struggled with assurance of salvation because of my sin; however a turning point came when I was reminded at university that we are not saved because we are righteous but because we are SINNERS!! I sought afresh God’s grace and help to stop becoming entangled in those sins which so easily ensnare me and have caused me to fall prey to Satan’s whispers of doubts about my salvation in the past. Today, with joy, I can say that I know the assurance of being saved through Christ alone! I can also say to you that I have a purpose and a living hope for the future because my identity is found in Christ the Lord. Can you say this about yourself too?